Ghosts
When the darkness fell I left you behind
Flailing at the demons in your mind
I know what I did, and I think I know why
But when the sun shines it feels like a crime
All of the truths that I come to hold true
Are powdered to lies when I think of you
I don’t have integrity, wisdom in stone
My essence is tainted when you are alone.
I’ve read many books; I’ve fasted and prayed
To bring myself out of the night into day
I understand Karma and I’ve tried to be true
But all of it’s meaningless if I can’t reach you
Chorus
And Hey aren’t we wonderful,
We share everything
We’re saving each other,
We chant and we sing
We cry and hold hands
And we compare our scars
We tremble with tears as we unpeel our hearts
We are revolution; we’re the light of the dawn
But actually you’re not, coz you don’t belong,
You were snuffed out by the needle of pain
And you’re the sadness in solitude’s rain.
I don’t have an answer, I’m not proving points
Smoke isn’t what you inhale from a joint
Smoke is and clarity’s what I’m trying to find
Trusting my universe, clearing my mind
And it would be right here in my hand
If I could just leave you behind…
What’s this confessional trying to say
That I’m not alone being haunted this way
While all of us gather in circles of light
Our backs are a wall to the ghosts of the night
The ways of renewing our souls that we learn
Are only worth anything
When they’ve been earned
I think I’m being hard on myself,
In a gentle world you’ll never get help
There never was anything I could have done
Just to get you to drop the gun
You needed urgency, incarceration
Total immersion in realisation
But I never had the power to do that
Stop you destroying yourself like a prat
I loved you enough to drag you away
But what could I do, what could I say